What does it mean to be whole? What does it mean to love yourself? These are questions I have asked time and time again, as there is no instruction manual and the concepts are vast, thus difficult to comprehend. This is the problem I have with such new age notions that typically come straight from the mouths of the spiritual “experts” and gurus; there is an assumption that these things are easy to define, achieve and sustain. I wish someone would tell the truth that it’s harder than you think (even for Mr. Deepak Chopra), especially to those of us who were born human.
“So Hum” means “I Am” in Sanskrit. When expressed, it is meant to identify your reality – a reality that is Universal. It is not a phrase used simply for self-identification, i.e., I Am Tracey; I Am a life coach; I Am my parents’ child. The broader meaning is that of being one with everything, i.e., I Am You; I Am We; I Am All. This is the mantra I was taught to internalize while meditating, inhaling “So” while exhaling “Hum,” and incorporating this practice has been my most successful attempt at being silent and present in a world that is noisy and disconnected. Through moments of serenity, I begin to see myself as part of a larger whole. I can see that I Am a living, breathing extension of all humanity.
This, I suspect, is what Martin Luther King, Jr. meant when he said, “I am what I am because of who we all are."
Hurry up and wait!
Many of us are anxious to kick off the New Year with a fresh perspective. As we leave behind the density of 2014, we are pressed with an almost insatiable need for something entirely different. It is understandable, and there is plenty of cosmic support above to help make all of our dreams for the future a reality. But alas, we won’t see much progress until around the end of March this year. In fact, the first three months of 2015 will be much of the same.
(But don’t let this discourage you from moving forward with your life as planned!).
“It is only by admitting our deeply wounded areas to a place at the table of general awareness, taking ourselves as we are, whole and fractured, healthy and wounded, recognizing that both points of view are in some way entirely accurate, that we come to greater integration.” Henry Seltzer
I never realized just how terrifying it is to get to know your true self on a deep level. How easy it is to come up with excuses that silence an inner knowing. How difficult it is to sit alone with just the sound of your breath. How desperate one can be to fill a void with something external. There is an element of shame associated with our hesitancy, as if we’d be punished for the indulgence. As a result, we lose sight of who we are meant to be, making choices that seem almost rehearsed.