“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart, and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms, and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” ~Rainer Maria Rilke
To what extent am I willing to have my sense of security challenged, for the sake of change and self-betterment?
The planet Pluto has been moving through the sign of Capricorn since 2008, and upon ingress, many of our beliefs, values, and institutional systems shifted quite drastically. Financial crises rocked global markets; snow and ice were discovered on planet Mars; the U.S. elected its first African-American president, and I walked away from full-time employment without having any job prospects in place. These major events left many people filled with anxiety, and vulnerable. Change reared its head as most of us grappled to maintain the status quo. In hindsight, we – our world, in many ways – transformed for the better due to faltering foundations. But not before we released our need for control, and surrendered to the unfolding.
Sometimes a seed that is planted in the mind needs to be rooted in the heart before it can blossom.
Saturn in the 1st house of my astrological birth chart makes me very intentional with the goals and ambitions I pursue. But I also have an Aries Moon that makes me equally impatient, and in need of instant gratification. The older I get, however, the more I understand that when I am patient with time, time is patient with me. It is a delicate balance that I must always be mindful of, between racing to the finish line, and thoughtfully planning a course of action. I find equilibrium when I can remember to take baby steps. The little victories that follow are more meaningful and help keep up my momentum.