The end of 2021 was fast and furious for me. And as I ease my way into 2022 (even though work is keeping me busy in this busy season), I find myself leaning more intentionally into a space of aloneness.
Feeling alone is not at all new for me. What is new is giving myself permission to be alone. In the process, I’ve learned two things: a) I’m really good at finding distractions to keep me from being alone with myself, and b) It is necessary that I be alone with myself in order to feel and know the depths of my heart’s yearnings.
I must say that this has been a rather intimate experience, and uneasy. It’s also been curiously liberating as I seem to better clarify my soul’s needs – to name out loud what I want for my life in 2022 and beyond.
What’s been hard, however, is not knowing how to achieve it and feeling helpless. I realize, energetically, that all I am supposed to do right now is just be where I am. But I can’t help feeling simultaneously aware of how little control I have over getting to where I yearn to be.
I know that what comes next involves a gentle opening to what I could do differently to get there – a gentle disarming by the Universe so that She may step in on my behalf. But if I’m being honest, I feel angry, bitter, and, well, alone at the moment. I also know these feelings will eventually lift.
Until then, I'll wait, and continue to clarify and deepen. Interestingly, dear reader, this is where the real magic begins. The alchemy of heart and mind leads to gold by spring. So, remember this as you ease into 2022. Let things fall apart and then together. Be alone for now.
I must say that this has been a rather intimate experience, and uneasy. It’s also been curiously liberating as I seem to better clarify my soul’s needs – to name out loud what I want for my life in 2022 and beyond.
What’s been hard, however, is not knowing how to achieve it and feeling helpless. I realize, energetically, that all I am supposed to do right now is just be where I am. But I can’t help feeling simultaneously aware of how little control I have over getting to where I yearn to be.
I know that what comes next involves a gentle opening to what I could do differently to get there – a gentle disarming by the Universe so that She may step in on my behalf. But if I’m being honest, I feel angry, bitter, and, well, alone at the moment. I also know these feelings will eventually lift.
Until then, I'll wait, and continue to clarify and deepen. Interestingly, dear reader, this is where the real magic begins. The alchemy of heart and mind leads to gold by spring. So, remember this as you ease into 2022. Let things fall apart and then together. Be alone for now.
