“…And if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly.” Teddy Roosevelt
In what may have been an act on impulse (I’m not sure), I reached out to someone that I love and care for deeply; someone whom I have not been in contact with for months; someone that I desire to be close to and in relationship with, and asked if we could get together and talk. I was hoping to have the kind of heart opening out pouring that would demand I show up vulnerable, no longer experiencing the opposite of what I desire. The response I received was discouraging.
In what may have been an act on impulse (I’m not sure), I reached out to someone that I love and care for deeply; someone whom I have not been in contact with for months; someone that I desire to be close to and in relationship with, and asked if we could get together and talk. I was hoping to have the kind of heart opening out pouring that would demand I show up vulnerable, no longer experiencing the opposite of what I desire. The response I received was discouraging.
And so, my emotions continue to ping-pong in a fit of desperation for closure and clarity. I continue to ask the same old questions like a broken record: Why am I here? When will I learn? How do I surrender? I must work a little harder these days to get grounded, using trustworthy spiritual tools (astrology, prayer, ritual, pen and paper, music) that do the trick, even if temporarily. And when I get quiet long enough (which is hard with all the commentary racing through my mind), messages from a higher source can be accessed. I still have to sit with confusion, sadness, and uncertainty, as tears continue to fall. And I still can’t help but to hope for the best (I am a Leo after all).
Because my intention is to heal, transform, connect, and allow love to enter my heart without my own fears, blocks, and hang-ups getting in the way, I am certain that all will be well – that things will work out as they should. But sometimes (ok, most times), I am just too impatient to fully integrate the ancient wisdom I try to impart on my clients that encourages us to trust, let our Soul be our guide, and practice being. I want things to be right – right now. Hence the impulsive acts that don’t always go as intended (that would be my Aries Moon).
I share this with you, because sometimes life really is hard, and shit really does seem unfair, and you often do have to sit and wait for clarity and closure and fixing, and while you wait, life has to continue. You have to go to work, and pay your bills, and deal with family, and attend to your responsibilities, and nurture yourself, and continue to sit, and wait, and live. That is what the journey is all about. You may be in the trenches, but at least you are living the journey.
And so, I applaud YOU for being human. For being flawed with good intentions. For trying, really trying, even when it seems you failed, even when it seems futile. For loving, still. For remembering to take the good with the bad. For getting up in the morning. For being true and authentic even if misguided or confused. For simply being you.
And to you, with the discouraging response, I love you. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
Check your horoscopes to see what’s in store this week ahead, and don’t forget to read for your Ascendant sign, too.
Because my intention is to heal, transform, connect, and allow love to enter my heart without my own fears, blocks, and hang-ups getting in the way, I am certain that all will be well – that things will work out as they should. But sometimes (ok, most times), I am just too impatient to fully integrate the ancient wisdom I try to impart on my clients that encourages us to trust, let our Soul be our guide, and practice being. I want things to be right – right now. Hence the impulsive acts that don’t always go as intended (that would be my Aries Moon).
I share this with you, because sometimes life really is hard, and shit really does seem unfair, and you often do have to sit and wait for clarity and closure and fixing, and while you wait, life has to continue. You have to go to work, and pay your bills, and deal with family, and attend to your responsibilities, and nurture yourself, and continue to sit, and wait, and live. That is what the journey is all about. You may be in the trenches, but at least you are living the journey.
And so, I applaud YOU for being human. For being flawed with good intentions. For trying, really trying, even when it seems you failed, even when it seems futile. For loving, still. For remembering to take the good with the bad. For getting up in the morning. For being true and authentic even if misguided or confused. For simply being you.
And to you, with the discouraging response, I love you. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
Check your horoscopes to see what’s in store this week ahead, and don’t forget to read for your Ascendant sign, too.
