I stopped.
I stopped crying. I stopped feeling sad. I stopped being motionless.
I stopped repeating the cycle.
Eventually I stopped caring so much about those things that didn’t matter. I stopped questioning, and for once, allowed a higher power to navigate life on my behalf.
At that point, I stopped following all the rules. I stopped conforming. I stopped needing to be in control. I stopped agonizing over what could go wrong because deep down, I knew all would be well.
This forced me to stop criticizing my thoughts and my actions. I stopped fighting what I felt so that I could simply feel. I stopped experiencing frustration for not knowing. I stopped trying to be the fixer.
It was time for me to stop wallowing in self-pity and realize that I was someone to be valued. I stopped downplaying my attributes. I stopped believing that I wasn’t special.
I had to stop disowning my gifts. I stopped referring to myself as someone who worked for a company in Washington DC, and began calling myself an Astrologer and Spiritual Life Coach.
Once fear and doubt no longer influenced my outlook, I stopped worrying. I stopped forgetting that life was rigged in my favor, to quote Rumi, and I stopped neglecting my purpose.
As life began to pick up speed, I stopped wondering if he would call, or if he still cared. I stopped him from dominating my thoughts. I stopped pining for unrequited love.
That’s when he called, of course. But I stopped answering. The call of my Soul was on the other line, and it was tired of being placed on hold. I stopped ignoring it, and finally let it dictate my course of action.
Then, everything stopped. Everything. Silence filled the space and I stopped to hear its whispers. The messages became clearer at the same time my blessings became more apparent. It was in that moment that I stopped coming up with excuses, and finally stepped up to my life.
Regardless of what we do or don’t do, whatever will be, will be. As it is so, all that’s required of us is to create the life we want.
It’s that simple; our only task is to stop making it complicated.