As I begin to transition in to a new life that bears my own personal mark, the scared little girl within makes her fear and discomfort known. She shows up in my dreams crying. She rebels by causing me to "forget" that I have astrology readings scheduled (true story). She impedes my drive and focus with her lack of discipline. She won’t allow me to erect and solidify new routines that speak to a lifestyle change. If I did not know any better, I would say that she is attempting to sabotage my efforts, ensuring that I remain only somewhat evolved with my dreams only partially realized. But the scared little girl within "forgets" that she too is evolved, as she is a part of me. I know that these are simple acts of resistance to creating a quality of life that begs the need for us to show up fully present and authentic.
In order to offer that scared little girl some reassurance, I have learned to soften my approach to change. My desire to carve out an existence that speaks to who I am and what I value involves making some difficult decisions – decisions that are good for my Soul as they speak to my truth. But I still need to be mindful and acknowledge the little girl’s legitimate concerns, allowing her the time and space to accept a new normal while mourning the life that was. The little girl represents a childhood of innocence where everything was provided by grown-ups and security was offered by those in authority; I need her to trust that I am a very responsible grown-up who can provide the security she needs as my own personal authority.
The planet Saturn dips back into the sign of Scorpio reminding us of certain life areas that are currently under construction. Saturn in the sign of the Phoenix has been of great influence over the past couple of years, and during its retrograde we will be called to task, tidying up loose ends in preparation for a total makeover courtesy of planets in Leo. Final completions, however, will not be easy. Courage will be necessary to say goodbye to any relationship, habit, or way of life that blocks transformative growth. It is a process that will challenge us all to adjust to change, careful not to stir the child-like fears we harbor, while cultivating self-empowerment. This is all possible, as long as we remember to apply a soothing balm where necessary, in the event that certain parts of ourselves need more time to get settled.
Check your horoscopes to see how this energy will affect you over the coming weeks. Don’t forget to read for your Ascendant sign.
The planet Saturn dips back into the sign of Scorpio reminding us of certain life areas that are currently under construction. Saturn in the sign of the Phoenix has been of great influence over the past couple of years, and during its retrograde we will be called to task, tidying up loose ends in preparation for a total makeover courtesy of planets in Leo. Final completions, however, will not be easy. Courage will be necessary to say goodbye to any relationship, habit, or way of life that blocks transformative growth. It is a process that will challenge us all to adjust to change, careful not to stir the child-like fears we harbor, while cultivating self-empowerment. This is all possible, as long as we remember to apply a soothing balm where necessary, in the event that certain parts of ourselves need more time to get settled.
Check your horoscopes to see how this energy will affect you over the coming weeks. Don’t forget to read for your Ascendant sign.
