Ever since leaving my full time job, I have been complaining about the fact that my days seem to be hijacked. I can’t get a handle on how I manage my schedule. There are no real routines or structures in place that give me a sense of grounding. My attitude with the work on my plate is less urgent, while I become more interested in so many other things. Of course, this is what I prefer; I like that my days do not look the same. I get to indulge my curiosities, and contemplate more intently how I wish to live. But I am frustrated that there is neither a rhyme nor a reason to what I am doing now. The various activities on my calendar do not intersect, and I feel scattered in my desire to follow the many passions in my heart.
How often do we forget that it is all a process? Many of us set the intention to do and to be better, but we forget about that first crucial step, which involves the loss of what was (made worse when we resist). What follows, however, is the inevitable surrender to a new awareness free of conditioning that promotes a self actualized, i.e., whom you are meant to be in accordance with a higher truth. Be careful, then, with what you wish for should you ask for a life of meaning and purpose. Like the ads we see for new drugs approved by the FDA, there are a few disclaimers: the process does not happen overnight. It is not easy. The old stories, structures, routines, excuses, wounds, lies, and fears that kept you living only partial lives will be replaced with new versions of truth. The process is ongoing with milestones along the way that can be attained instantly, or over the course of decades. Once you set off on the journey, life will never be the same, and you will be better for it.
Check your horoscopes to see what’s in store for the week ahead, and don’t forget to read for your Ascendant sign too!